I'm new at this...

Ok so I started to realize I'm probably the worst blogger on the planet. I think i posted more on my thoughts that ended up being articles, or I just copied and pasted a really interesting article. So on behalf of my poor blogging skills - Sorry! 

So It's been about 6 weeks and I'm starting to really grow into the shoes God has thrown me into. I'm not completely all there yet, but I'm far closer than I used to be. I still look back and can't believe that just 6 weeks ago I was in Virginia with one life, and now I'm in Hawaii with a completely new one. It's taken me awhile to realize what God put on my heart that all started with the short two weeks or so I had to unwind my life in NOVA. I guess the burden God put on my heart snowballed, and He just gave  it a small push to jump start it into motion. As I look back, I honestly don't have any regrets - because I feel that nothing I left behind I left on a bad note. Work was great - I had a firm position as a trader in a dwindling industry ( and  I LOVED my coworkers ), I had a firm place in the church & the community as a lead worshipper, and my friends & family were wonderful. Doesn't make sense does it -Probably makes more sense if everything was quite the opposite.  But something in me said that world was not enough. There was a hole in my heart that couldn't be filled with mere friendships, daily activities nor  any NY Times best-selling self help book. And when you take the word of God, and read about the Kingdom and our King, He says it loud and clear:

24Then Jesus told his disciples, "If anyone would come after me, let him deny himself and take up his cross and follow me. 25For whoever would save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for my sake will find it. 26what will it profit a man if he gains the whole world and forfeits his soul? Or what shall a man give in return for his soul?  For the Son of Man is going to come with his angels in the glory of his Father, and then he will repay each person according to what he has done. (Matthew 16:24-27)

I've realized that I've done everything in this life on my own without "losing my life" as Jesus says. And from what I see, It's quite successful in the worlds eyes yet there was no satisfaction whatsoever. I've associated myself well in the church, I've graduated college and got a good job, made some decent money and have had relationships but no satisfaction still. So what's my point? My point is that if I continue this self-made life to find myself at 40, and all I have is a higher position in the church, with a wife & kids to fill a house, and a pile of trinkets & toys with the higher salary I make - I know that I would have completely missed it all.

So, why is Jasen Chung out here in Hawaii?.... Because I want to lose my life to save it... and to see how much more powerful and fulfilling of a life God will lead me to when I let Him be in the drivers seat this time. For all I know, I may be back in NOVA, 40 years old with a house, family & trinkets - but at least I know that God was in the drivers seat, and that I'm in love with Him and His presence. God made us into His image, and He's redeemed us through the cross... so why are we so busy trying to save our lives when He already paid for it all. His yoke is easy, and burden is light - but it seems we've created a culture & society that fools ourselves to make "reality" much easier to swallow , than God's easy yoke of life.  

The history of my life will reveal if I believe in God ..... and I trust that losing my life will save it when I put it into my King's hands. 

Love yall more than ya know, 

- Jasen

P.S. - God called me to leave everything, literally, and never would I put that standard on anyone. I hope you know that God will call us to "lose our life" in the way He wants us to. Love yall.